Where do you start when repairing trust?

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formspring.me/autumnsays

I took this survey July 17 and again September 15/16. 2009

Now July 19, 2010

Which would be more meaningful to you: I love you a lot, I love you so much?

uhh..i love you. (:

yep.

I agree with them.

Do you like your cell phone? Or do you wish you had a new one?

i'm looking forward to the new one i'm getting?

my cell phone is fine.

Obviously not high maintenance bc I’m still good.

Do you prefer to call or text?

um, calls.

yes.

Yass. I really only prefer txts if I wanna hear from you all damn day lol.

Does it piss you off that stupid sixth graders think they're in love?

i was not aware of this nor do i care..lol

why should i care?

this is STILL a really weird question.

Do you like it when people play with your hair?

do you mean pull? lol..i like when my sister does my hair.

(:

Yeah I do. But wash your hands because I’m all types of particular about my hair care.

When was the last time you completely broke down?

3..4 days ago?

day before school? sometime before school.

May.

Anything you're looking forward to?

saturday?

my audition and the fuckshitting weekend and anything janet lol.

Trying to figure out what that audition thing was, maybe for chamber ensemble?  But looking forward to reading The Interpretation of Dreams! & To find out my plans for Thursday.

Would you ever try being a vegetarian?

i used to be, but i couldn't.

i'm thinking of going vegan when i'm 20.

Wow I am nuts lol.  One day I will probably join a cult of Prince worshippers and be vegan as a result.  So, yes.

When you like someone, do you picture what your children will look like?

lol, nope. but they would be freakin gorgeous! (=

nooo. ugh, that was true.

Those were both definitely about Gerald. But to answer the question, I like HIM and we already have 2 beautiful kids.

Who was the last person you texted?

marcus.

this annoying automatic thingie.

HEE-JIN ALYSA KIM I LOVE YOU SWEET THANG

What was the highlight of your day?

bringing the day in (=

when mr. cotter smiled at mee.

Oh mr. cotter.  But probably getting my check and receiving random messages from he who makes me smile and skeet.

What is your all-time favorite romance movie?

love & basketball? the best man!

and monster-in-law, and other cheesy shit.

Yeah that sums it all up pretty well.

Who do you have texts from in your inbox?

oh lord; marcus, gerald, danielle, kayla, cazre, bubby, kota, ref, greg, katya, dee (=, mommy, some random guy named dave, jamie, will, & alle baba

oh lord. jamie, kayla, danielle, bubby, shaneekwa, davion, mama, rolo, dee, seon, kota, lu alerts (=, toya, devante. mind you i dont txt, so they all old as shit

ew katya. ew REF! ew DAVION! omggg ew lol but um:  bam, seon, cazre, steve, liz, dee, gregorium, demetria, coot, glen coco, gianya, twitair, rico suave, self, best friend joe, nosebleed mcgee, rachel, sprint, alle baba, gerald, jared the fatty, rolo, mama, and big bertha

Are you one of those twilight crazy people?

the books are not worth the hoopla.

no thanks.

nope

When's the last time you said you were fine, but really weren't?

uh...as long as i'm living, i'm fine. (:

yep. living & healthy.

Wow I’ve had that philosophy for a while now

Last person you told a secret?

gerald doesn't let me have secrets.

damn it sounded like he owned me. sheesh but yeah i still don't have secrets.

ditto. I always confide in someone rather quickly.

Who was the last person you were in a car with?

siSTAR & mama.

yep [:

pops

Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say?

um, you look at the phone & say nigga please!

it's a bad time. lol it's alwaaaays a bad time nugga!

hay

Red Bull?

nah.

nah?

I guess

Is there someone you'd really like to just hang out with and talk about stuff?

emmm?

taylor! and steve? yeah steve too.

aw I still feel the same. but right now, big bertha because she is going to korea for the rest of ever ): also gregorium, alle baba, cazre, all my friends?

Think back to June 2007, were you single?

hmmm..nope.

....

I’m glad I remembered the first time around bc I sure don’t now.

Do you want to get married and have children one day?

[:

child(ren) definitely. marriage: if it's for me, yes.

ditto

Could you cry right now?

nah.

i'm sure if i forced myself

I don’t think so. Not unless a monster came into my room

Will you be single over summer?

no.

oh summer how i miss you so. not really, just....ahhh.

lol no (:

Do you hope your children are like you one day?

no! lmao. kinda.

haha yes & no. i want them to grow up fast like i did, but love their childhood like i never really could, for as long as i should have anyways.

Well that explains why I’m still holding on to childhood, doesn’t it. And I rather they have different personalities but the same logic.  Why would you want the same contribution to society two generations in a row?

Have you ever dropped your cell phone in water?

not this one, my last one.

Lalalalala

at some point yes

Would you be surprised if you parents had another baby together?

hell yes.

mmhm.

HAHA I seriously wouldn’t think it was my pops. Or my mama’s lol.  But if we’re speaking biological parents, hell yes.

Has 2009 been good for you so far?

it's been a learning experience.

so-so

2010 has been rocky, thanks for asking

Your sister tells you she's in jail, what do you say?

it's because of nicholas isn't it.

same thing

HA yeah.

Someone leaves a note and flowers on your car, cute or tacky?

i don't own a car. d:

rawr rawr rawr

still a bum

Would you ever date someone who was conceited?

hell no.

no thank you

not exactly.

Are you currently reading a book?

yes. a couple thousand.

no )':

YES and no wonder I was miserable at that time

Would you cry if you found out one of your friends were pregnant?

no...

maybe, because of being so emotional.

If she told me face to face.

Today, would you rather go forward a week or back a week?

forward?

yeah probably forward.

Forward!

Your best friend randomly starts hating you. What do you do?

say i never knew you could be so dumb.

word.

heck yes. and tell greg on them.

Would you ever go on a game show if you were offered?

no i'd be scared as shit!

yes! lol idk why i'd be scared

yes! monay!

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking weed?

haha, yes.

watch me!

still walkin strong

Where is the person who has your heart at the moment?

work.

*checks for heartbeat

yeah it's still inside of me.

lol I was a funny lad. he’s home.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?

idk maybe.

maybe?

Isn’t that just the way things go?

Do you laugh a lot?

yes people tell me that a lot.

yes but it's quiet actually.

YEAH, love to

Who are you spending your summer with this year?

people.

most likely mr. clark lol.

that didn’t happen ): but books, my laptop, music, people I love & vice versa, and movies and tyra. hoorah!

Do you believe in karma?

yes..

yes still.

fate.

Did you have a good birthday this year?

uhhhh

last year was so joyful

my sweet 16 was soooo much better than yours, fareals.

Do you think somebody likes the same person you do?

do you mean is a hoe trying to creep on my man? yes.

hell yes!

HA duh, how can you not?  And nobody was checkin for gerald, lol.

Are you a boy or a girl?

lmao, fem.

*checks for weiner

girl!

i’m a season..

Last time you held a baby?

a week & some change ago.

sunday.....same baby lol

aw she’s 1 years old now (= but last time I held a baby was my niece on saturday and she’s a newborn.

Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

bloomingdales i think.

gap. 2 for $10 tanks wooot!

not sure if I’m wearing a shirt.

Are you a jealous person?

no, possessive of what is mine.

i get very greedy about my friends, yes.

I agree with female number 1.

Is there anything that you are craving right now?

yes (:

ice cream that i have not opened.

a nice sleep and he.

Do you like being kissed spontaneously or asked?

hahaha spontaneity.

yes

yass you better work!

Has anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad?

errrrm yes

people kept telling me to go to the nurse & the nurse was rude and mean.

I haven’t seen the people I’d like to, and one of them is now in cali. Another is in korea. & I know the reasons I haven’t seen people are my fault.

Enjoyed?

So this week, I

completed 11th grade!  Senior wahoot!  Privileges allow me to see yallsss shady behinds less and less!  Wahoots!
got a boyfran.
cried every time i looked at my formspring because yall don't want to know anything about me /:
found a new reliable confidant in an old friend.
cried about Blue to he.^
was completely flattered.
stuck it to the man!...as Alle Baba said.  Well really I just wrote a thought-out critique of my english teacher for teacher evaluations.
felt way uninspired computerly, as shown by my lack of passionate blogs.  Hopefully summer will mean time for that. /:
scheduled visits to Howard & Georgetown!  Yes!


Goodnight.

Tons of New Txting Buddies (=

1.  and they are sophomores.  I don't even like sophomores, but all of the cool ones were around me this week.  Some freshmen too though.  People weren't as repulsive for me this week.  (:
2.  I'm going to Costa Rica on Sunday and I don't wanna stay the whole week.  I reaaaaally hope I can come back early, maybe spend time with Blue?  That's definitely pushing it, but I'm allowed to have dreams.
3.  Did you see True Life:  I Need A Transplant?  Pretty great, makes you feel sappy though.  Otherwise, these new True Lifes look pretty lame.  16 & Pregnant is still damn good though.
4.  I'm pretty hyped to see my SAT scores from earlier this month.  They come on April 1 and unless I get over a 2000, I'm continuing my prep classes.  
5.  I'm about 19 hours into having braids and my head feels tighter than...yup.  Prettay darn tight.
6.  Blue doesn't act like he likes me anymore.  We haven't seen each other in...almost 3 months. ):
7.  I have to pack and I really don't want to.  I have about 5 articles of clothing in my damn drawers anyway.  Hmph
8.  Fairly Oddparents was so much better when it first started.  Now, it can't even hold my attention for very long.
9.  Why do Ethan Hunt and Rico Strong do so many damn threesomes together?

I Ought to Get Girlier

...wouldn't more girls like me then?
Just kidding, shit me if I'd ever change myself.  But you really do run into madd complications when your friend crowd is the same crowd you're attracted to.  It's stressful & draining.  When I have any sort of problem with people, I automatically withdraw.  I just don't talk to anyone & I read a book in most cases.  Currently reading The Canterbury Tales.  It's so very annoying though, because now that I basically have the people that I talk to talk to, I have to keep in touch or I'll further screw myself and bring more altercations with people.  I'm introverted & it's just not my nature to tell everything that is going on in my head.  When I'm asked to do that, my mind basically runs away from me and I can't think straight.  When you have kids, fuck an extrovert.  You really don't want your child to go through the social problems that introverts have.  & Another thing; people are so damn judgmental.  You fucking mammals always have to classify each other...like when extroverts walk into a room, they group everyone in the room into classifications in their head.  But if you are an introvert, your classification is not clear to everyone until they give you the opportunity to express who it is that you are.  Whereas extroverts broadcast their persona immediately and you can always tell what kind of person they are.  You definitely cannot tell what kind of person I am without talking to me.  You can't even tell who I am after talking to me for like half an hour.  Which is why I really hate ASSumptions.  When people make ASSumptions about me, they are always the fuck wrong.  That shit is annoying. & I know it is weird, but I don't like the statements "I am..." or "She is..." because the verb "to be" is infinitely defining in most cases.  So if you say "Tally is "pensive/weird/quiet," you're limiting me to that one description...as a person, that is not all that I am.  You can't perfectly fulfill that phrase without saying "Tally is...Tally."  Feel me?  It's just something in language that really irks me and a lot of the time I find it offensive.

This was not even supposed to be a long blog but I still have more to say.

Back to the genderonium topicals, it's very annoying having all penal friends.  It seems like the only time penii respect me enough to gain my friendship, they also fall into like with me.  And it is flattering & fun when I am single, but Bob-forbid if I ever start to like someone; they will all act a fool & abandon or abuse our initial friendship.  Idk what would ever happen if I became a lovey dovey girl.  Because I really do not talk about my lovering life with my friends.  I mention the person just as I would if we were only friends, but I don't go on saying how he said my lip gloss tasted like butter, when it's completely irrelevant.  So it's not like I'm shoving my relationship or potential relationship in nobody's damn face, they are just peens and testosterone is all grrr.  It's very annoying.  Get ahold of your damn self and stop being bitchy.

I shouldn't have to chose between friendships & serious relationships and my friends should want me to be fucking happy.

I want to change the song every Monday but I fear I'll run out of coolness?

When I was 15,

I got my first Victoria's Secret bra.

I started to blog regularly.

I made friends on the interweb.

I got on honor roll for the first time in high school.

I got my first C.

I became comfortable. [:

I did not drink alcohol.

I fell in and out of love.

I learned everything else about HTML codes.

I became obsessed with finding unknown artists.

I got 4 followers.  (:

I tried the vertical 69.

I got to know my hair completely.

I began having headaches from sex deprivation.

I controlled my addictions.
I made my sister my responsibility.
I found a mother in Danielle.
I began having 100% healthy relationships.
I always wanted to be held.
I'm not 15 anymore.

Last Week of Q.1

Pray for your favorite blogger & wish her good luck. (:

So, did you see last Sunday's Desperate Housewives?  Bomb!  But ewwww did you see when Katherine was raising her hand to volunteer for night watch, that disgusting abnormal elbow!
I can't find a picture.
Anywhom (you would not believe what I almost said by accident.  I itch when people's tendencies start growing into me.), you should watch it.  It's kinda weird how Edie is still in that picture, but she's dead.  blech
I can't wait to watch tonight's which I watch on the west coast channel at midnight. Or the next morting since I'm a sleepy head & drift off.  & Then wake up...quite annoying.  I can't sleep normal for shit.

Gabby:  Someone isn't getting blanked tonight!
Carlos:  Fine by me, I blanked off earlier.

Hahahahahaha

Bing bang, schleppy wang

(copyright of Danielle)

HEAVY USAGE OF SAP


Dear Love,


I am writing you, as i always do, and epic long comment that will hopefully make both of our days=))))
so as Nivea so justly put "Ima give you 25 reasons why im really in love with you"....and ima make all the hoes jealous when i do (i remixed that) haha.


Twenty-Five Reasons Why Tally Has My Heart(lol <3)


1. you talk my crazy ass out of doing stupid things.
2. you're sexy as HELL (omg, shut ur mouth! haha).
3. you have to be the most realest and genuine person ive met on here ( and you're one of the few people on this planet who knows me best).
4. you forgive me for my stupid actions.
5. tu eres la mierda<333
6. out of all of my friends, i know that no matter what...if i was crying one night, ud find a way to stop my tears.
7. you're one of the most dedicated people (TO ANYTHING) that i may ever meet; are you sure "Successful" wasnt written for you? =)
8. i seem to always disappear and i regret that, but im fixing that really soon.
9. you've made me feel simply blessed for knowing you.
10. you've put up with my shit for almost a year now (HOLY SHIT, OUR TWIN-A-VERSARY IS COMING SOON!!).
11. you call me your "dime bitch" (looks to the left in awe).

12. somehow, when ure down...u make me wanna come kidnap you and rescue you from your stress (even though that's gonna be HELLA gas money! haha)
13. you speak your mind, and your mind is brilliant=)
14. you know what type of person i really am, even though half of the time i dont =P
15. you make me think about you all day everyday, and i bet you dont even know it (well you do now! lol).
16. you listen to me ramble about random shit at all times of day (i dont even know how you put up with me).

17. sometimes we have the most funn convos ever; and i still remember about 99.9% of them (HELLSHITFUCKDAMN TALLY!! lol).
18. we agree on a million and one things times infinity (most of the time, lol).
19. i secretly call you an old soul, because i think you're full of wisdom and are very wise for your age =) (you're cute too! *looks to the left and points: who said that?!*)
20-23. are things that should be said privately between us. lol.
24. you hold a special place in my heart that will never be erased, misplaced, or forgotten. (as if i can forget u bishhhhh, lol).
25. i love you because you're simply you.




thank you for being the one person who REALLY asks me how i'm doing during the day, and the convo doesnt just jump from me to you. i appreciate everything you've done for me...and most of all te amo<3




Love Always,


~Danielle a.k.a your twin~






Ps: it took me forever to do this bc i had to rewrite it 10 times. lol

END HEAVY USAGE OF SAP

 
It makes me feel nice that ahem even though we're bitching really heavily right now ahem (I'm doing about 96% of the consistent bitching), she can be at peace with all the good things that have come from us being friends.  But it still lurks in my head, and I don't understand why she would say I don't care about her.  I normally don't directly display shit with the people in my life...names and all, save Gerald.  But I was inclined, especially since she's one of the three bee-swax-itches(copyright of Danielle) I even fuck with.

My Beyonce Stans

You know when it comes to Beyonce as a performer and BUSINESS woman, I join the kids. Oh yes. She gets down and handles her shit and I admire it. Check my old blogs bitch because you know. (:

Lol..he says Carrie. Umm...I won't even say I like Keri Hilson. I don't. The album WAS hot, but really I just don't like her. HER ass need to sit down, wanna talk on Beyonce. Bitch bye.  & On real shit, if you had B's voice on some Keri shit, Beyonce would destroy it, smash that shit into smithereens and send each one to Jupiter with a fierce cheetah kiss. Never would be the same, and never to be fucked with...end of story.


Now let's get deep in a hoe's gut. I'm done spending my time on people. It gets nowhere. I had this mentality the beginning of last year, and my grades were spectacular thank you. Thats all I focused on. So I'm glad I'm stating this shit early in my junior year. People have taken advantage of me to the fullest. Save two of them niggas. TWO. That's some fuckery...so I'm done.


Ahem, ahem


*I don't wanna make this long. If we close, and we are real friends (like on some real shit, get deep in a hoe with me now) I'll be accessible 24/7...basically, ain't shit changin. But if I feel you are not a good friend to me, bitch I'll throw you on my to do list. Just like you been doing to me, and being half-assed. It was fun fucking with you and your nonsense for the summer, but it's time to get on my shit.  No honey. I see you, now watch me fuck you in the ass with no Vaseline.

sunscreen makes my booty itch

Last Sunday to the Saturday which we have just passed, I was in Florida.  My mama decided to drive there, beginning on Saturday the 22nd.
Needless to say, we covered a lot of roads

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& We saw a rainbow on the way.

We passed a shitload of Waffle Houses

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and on our way back, we stopped in one...where I took a picture in the bathroom.

We stayed in a big pretty hotel

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where our room was in a building right off a lake-surrounding bridge.

The bridge took you right to the grand pool & hot tub

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which my sister insisted on frequenting every day.  See above.  But i made more friends

in the lake.  (Does that look like a huge neon blue peenie or is it just the sex on my brain?)

Of course my sister dragged me everywhere she went

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being that I am her mother.  (She's actually a lot prettier than that ugly face.)

We also went shopping, where I frequented the Miss Sixty dressing room

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--that's actually my dress--and the 2nd day we went, I bought some fucktastic silvergray jeans

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--don't say shit about my shirt--for $49.  (Coupons woot!)

My bed was kinda annoying

because it was so fluffy, and I don't even sleep with pillows...just Scooby and others.  (That leg belongs to my zebra, Valentine.)

I was all smiles while there

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but it was a bit too much work catering to my family to be a vacation.

The drive back was an irritating realization, so I watched He's Just Not That Into You & read...instead of catering.  I didn't see anything too exciting besides a motorcycle parade.

And when I got back, I unpacked & got comfy

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and did my hair the next morting

to prepare it for pulling.

(:

Byebye.

10 Things

1. I really hate when I give Weezy a try & he fails. Lemme go change the song playing. Oh Rick Ross raps like he from Alabama. If you listen to this song called MIA by weezy, he completely disses New Orleans. Such bitchassness..I mean I would stick by Brooklyn & rep it til it's left in ruins. God why does he breathe so much on his songs? Lol.

2. I have a 2 dollar bill that I keep for good luck. But I always wonder if an establishment would turn me down for trying to use it.

3. I would make a bomb ass housewife…or roommate.

4. I like guys that work out and can throw me around and junk.

5. I find it dumb when people try to dictate others' blogs. Asshole; you don't have to read or advertise it.

6. I used to get into fights a lot. My logic was if you're too dumb for me to argue with and you are offending me, I'ma beat the shit out of your ass.

7. People take my presence for granted and act like I'll always be there for them personally. I reassure them.

8. Doesn't it disgust you that swallowing cum means you are swallowing someone's babies? Yeah..

9. Male artists' music about a girl always makes me think of a specific guy from my past.

10. Wayne's mixtapes suck as a whole. Undeniably..

11. I have strong motives when I first get to know someone who is uninterested in me. It always works, unless they're naturally an asshole…in which case I lose interest in knowing them. (:

12. It's very hard for me to look past a person's looks. It's one of the things I can't stand about myself. The only thing that will overrule what I think about how you look…is how much you respect me.

13. Plies & Rick Ross are probably the only southern rappers whose voices do not turn me on. Wayne, T.I., Joc, even DeAndre Way. Did you know his ass was born in Chicago…and he stay reppin ATL. I guess because of that accent. But I would much rather repping the Chi because of…THE BLUES…and then you know…Ye & Lu. & His ass is also a 90s baby. Ugh. He should be kicked out of the club lol. Anyways, Plies's voice is just so damn annoying. Like he makes me wanna shoot his ass in the eye just to shut up. He raps kinda like Cam but I can't appreciate his shit because of the damn voice. Did you know his name is Algernod? What the fuck? Oh lord…I'll be good but I could continue on that name for days.

14. I used to be infatuated with Bow Wow…then when all the girls hopped on it, I found Michael Ealy. I swore I would get with him. (= I had that picture all over my homework book in middle school. He is just so yum. I only put the link because if i put his face, man i'll jizz every time i looked at my blog. & so will you. We can't have that, now can we?

15. I've talked about this a lot with other people. But I wish I had a gun near my bed. Lmao I really hate when people wake me up…it's just so damn irritating. & When they do it, you can argue n shit, but then your ass will not be going back to sleep in peace. Now if you had a gun near your bed, as soon as somebody comes to wake you out of your sleep, you can just shoot they ass. Nice and easy, no fuss. Lol until later when your ass goes to jail.

16. I don't ask for much in a guy and I don't settle. Just compatibility and fun.

17. I have a heavy problem with breastses. -No typo.

18. Everyone from Brooklyn who goes to a college besides Kingsborough Community College goes to Morgan State. It's kinda annoying. Ugh; I really like the colleges in GA. But I don't wanna go there at all. It kinda bothers me that there are no HBCUs on the west side of the yousah….(USA)…yeah thank my sister & The Fairly Oddparents for that pronunciation.

19. I really hate when people bring drama or unhappiness upon themselves. Either your ass stops complaining to me because I don't play that, or your ass gets happy. I mean i really try to help. But honey, i'm not making myself crazy over your wanting-to-be-down ass.

20. If you are my friend, don't flirt when you're talking to my significant other or potential significant other. It's very clear who I'm talking about. I let this shit be known and I will claim a nigga. But if you flirt, your ass is dead to me. It's simply bitch, boo, bye. (= Plus it's not cute. He don't even like your ass. He thinks you're crazy and he hates when I leave yall alone. You fucking asshole.

21. It bothers me when people write "ya'll."

22. I get into fights over music. What makes you think I won't lose a crappy friend over it? Exactly, bitch.

23. I'll never call a guy daddy if it's not in person. Why do guys like that so much in txt?

24. India Arie <3

To leave on a good note:

(: He's my favorite comedian…I watch this whenever I'm in a crappy mood.