My Thoughts on What I Been Thinking

There is a segment on a radio station with that title.  So silly.  (:
     Anyways, while my family was in the car, my mom and my sister were discussing the Grammys.  My mom was explaining how she thought it was ridiculous that people praise the inordinateness that is Lady Gaga but apparently, Cee Lo Green's ensemble was comparable to Gaga's typical attire and people mocked him (allegedly...these were just her thoughts).
     I have yet to watch the Grammys (maybe this weekend) but I could definitely relate to the point my mom was making.  The media/people get fixated on liking one person or one type of "strange."  The media is entirely unfair and in turn, success in entertainment seems plain old sporadic.  We have heard tons of stories about astounding artists who were turned down earlier in their career, but everyone doesn't have the success that they later have.  For example, my favorite, Lupe Fiasco, is entirely underrated without reason.  As far as rapping, I think he is on Kanye West's level of genius and plenty of Lu-knowing fans, bloggers, and artists agree.  Why can the media only accept one or few types of abnormal?  There is virtually nothing you can do to ensure acceptance and success in entertainment.  Everyone knows a story about someone who is pure genius but no one knows.  This is just annoying and I'm disappointed.

Classic Family Guy

"Hey, people got along just fine for thousands of years without AA.  Just like they got along for thousands of years without religion."
random John:  I like you and have no reason not to!
random John 2:  I like you and have no reason not to!
random John 3:  Hey, did you hear about that magic baby that was born in Bethlehem?

-WAR, followed by death-

On Respect and Ignorance

I was watching one of my favorite shows, World News with Diane Sawyer, and there was a segment about a protest group from a church that was going around doing their protest dance.  Apparently, the group had been to military funerals and other places where they chanted and held picket signs that said things like “Thank God for Dead Soldiers,” “God Hates Obama,” and “The Anti-Christ” with a picture of Obama’s big lovely face on it.  You can read about the jolly group here.

Before I dive directly into my feelings about the happenings, let me give you a little background on my encounters with Sir Bearer of the Best News, Death.  When I was 10 years old, my grandmother died and she had always been an essential presence in my life.  There probably was some favoritism in our relationship because I was her first grandchild, but still.  She made me feel like I could do no wrong and I was the most important person in her life.  That was the first time I’d personally experienced the grief of a death and when I tell you that dealing with the situation over the years has been harder than you could ever imagine, please understand.  In summary, I am very sensitive about the topic of death…as I am about many things.

When someone dies, especially when you don’t know the person, I feel that you have to be extremely thoughtful and sensitive when dealing with the topic.  Whether you are comforting a friend or simply walking past a funeral, you just have to be most considerate.  You don’t know how meaningful that person’s life was even in relation to your own, and life itself is precious.  If you didn’t believe so, you wouldn’t allow yourself to live to read this right now.  How people can protest at such a special commemoration is far beyond me.  What gives you the right to chant your beliefs and completely disrespect a final gathering in honor of a complete stranger’s life?  The first amendment is likely to be a part of the group’s defense, but they could always fall back on their immeasurable stock of arrogance.  If we are idolizing Christ and trying to be Christ-like here, shouldn’t we be selfless and most understanding?  Why are we instead demeaning someone’s life and what she or he chose to dedicate her or his life to?  And even to live somewhat harmoniously in our world, shouldn’t we spend more time accommodating and less time attacking foreign beliefs and something as precious as life?  And who made this group and all of their comrades in accordance the committee of declaring who is Christ-like?  I was in utter shock when I watched the segment.  I felt like it was a ridiculous thing to show on the news, but I realized that the real ridiculous thing is the occurrence itself.

I feel that being this ignorant and close-minded is comparable to walking through life blindfolded and wearing sound-proof headphones.  And if this particular incident seems irrelevant, we must all remember that intelligence will only take us so far.  The global problems of today’s world stem from ignorance and we are all at risk of becoming ignorant in some way because we all have opinions.  It is important to recognize right from wrong, but possibly even more important to be familiar with other views and learn to settle into a common ground that will satisfy us all.

Anytime you want to feel any type of cool:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4GvPJuVif-Q

What Has Playboy Done for You Lately?

You, or anybody else who enjoys looking at playboy-esque porn. I just don't agree with its fame in the world of popular porn. Are the magazines really that great? I've never been able to flip through one, but they must be amazing because in every movie or TV show, someone is flipping through a Playboy magazine. Why Playboy? Why not mention one of the other X-Rated magazines, or pornhub or spankwire, when it comes to websites? I will say that Playboy is...classier than most other brands in its genre; you can almost forget that it supplies porn if you visit the mobile website, but why would we try and be classy when the topic is porn? The oxymoron bells are ringing!
I also hear the parties at the infamous mansion are outrageous, but us porn-viewers have a better chance of getting into heaven. So have we thought of a reason why Playboy isn't chopped liver yet? Oh right: that ever-desirable, sexy Viagra-guzzler.
Moving on, before I get attacked..
I remember at my old house, how I used to watch PlayboyTV just about every night. It was channel 66...yeaah buddy lol. I guess it was free then, because we had CableVisions & there was no purchasing extra channels and all that. So back then, Playboy was certainly a good friend of mine. But now, if I skim through the channels, I have to pay this & that. What is that nonsense? You know you dont need that extra money, Viagra-guzzler. Honestly. Can't we just have a little free hardcore porn on the boob tube? & The titles of the stuff on PlayboyTV are soo intriguing. It just is unfair.
So Playboy, if you ever want me to write you a fat check, join the wonderful world of free porn. Thank you in advance.

The Faces of Tyra

Somebody needs to learn to hold their gas?

Spanking

There was this heated and very entertaining episode of The Tyra Show where mothers & women were discussing the morality of spanking and the whole nine.  I recommend you watch/find it on the web or WHATEVER if you like debates period.  I'd say it was one of the best episodes of Ty Ty, and I'm a religious viewer.  (:
In my opinion, no rules can be set in stone when they concern people.  That is truly the bottom line.  Why?  Because of the big V!  Variation exists with people, and therefore with the situations they are involved in.  So the only way to understand how to discipline a child, in my opinion, is to know the child.  Discipline is all about repercussions.  You do something bad and something bad happens to you.  Parents put you in time out, take away something of yours, or spank you, whatever.  Parents just have to know what disciplinary actions mean to their child or children and decide what repercussion is suitable to the malicious action.  Every child cannot have the same upbringing because they require different things, and in turn, different nurturing or disciplinary actions.
I'm not a parent THANK BEEZUS, so I know it is easier said than done.  But that is my 2 cents.
As a side note, I also believe parents should never spank a child when they are mad.  You need to calm down first and the reason why is this:  Don't you want to shoot a person sometimes?  After you calm down, you'll still be ticked, but it won't be with as much anger.  So don't wind up shooting your kid or yelling at them as if you'd want to shoot them.  It is scary af!

formspring.me/autumnsays

I took this survey July 17 and again September 15/16. 2009

Now July 19, 2010

Which would be more meaningful to you: I love you a lot, I love you so much?

uhh..i love you. (:

yep.

I agree with them.

Do you like your cell phone? Or do you wish you had a new one?

i'm looking forward to the new one i'm getting?

my cell phone is fine.

Obviously not high maintenance bc I’m still good.

Do you prefer to call or text?

um, calls.

yes.

Yass. I really only prefer txts if I wanna hear from you all damn day lol.

Does it piss you off that stupid sixth graders think they're in love?

i was not aware of this nor do i care..lol

why should i care?

this is STILL a really weird question.

Do you like it when people play with your hair?

do you mean pull? lol..i like when my sister does my hair.

(:

Yeah I do. But wash your hands because I’m all types of particular about my hair care.

When was the last time you completely broke down?

3..4 days ago?

day before school? sometime before school.

May.

Anything you're looking forward to?

saturday?

my audition and the fuckshitting weekend and anything janet lol.

Trying to figure out what that audition thing was, maybe for chamber ensemble?  But looking forward to reading The Interpretation of Dreams! & To find out my plans for Thursday.

Would you ever try being a vegetarian?

i used to be, but i couldn't.

i'm thinking of going vegan when i'm 20.

Wow I am nuts lol.  One day I will probably join a cult of Prince worshippers and be vegan as a result.  So, yes.

When you like someone, do you picture what your children will look like?

lol, nope. but they would be freakin gorgeous! (=

nooo. ugh, that was true.

Those were both definitely about Gerald. But to answer the question, I like HIM and we already have 2 beautiful kids.

Who was the last person you texted?

marcus.

this annoying automatic thingie.

HEE-JIN ALYSA KIM I LOVE YOU SWEET THANG

What was the highlight of your day?

bringing the day in (=

when mr. cotter smiled at mee.

Oh mr. cotter.  But probably getting my check and receiving random messages from he who makes me smile and skeet.

What is your all-time favorite romance movie?

love & basketball? the best man!

and monster-in-law, and other cheesy shit.

Yeah that sums it all up pretty well.

Who do you have texts from in your inbox?

oh lord; marcus, gerald, danielle, kayla, cazre, bubby, kota, ref, greg, katya, dee (=, mommy, some random guy named dave, jamie, will, & alle baba

oh lord. jamie, kayla, danielle, bubby, shaneekwa, davion, mama, rolo, dee, seon, kota, lu alerts (=, toya, devante. mind you i dont txt, so they all old as shit

ew katya. ew REF! ew DAVION! omggg ew lol but um:  bam, seon, cazre, steve, liz, dee, gregorium, demetria, coot, glen coco, gianya, twitair, rico suave, self, best friend joe, nosebleed mcgee, rachel, sprint, alle baba, gerald, jared the fatty, rolo, mama, and big bertha

Are you one of those twilight crazy people?

the books are not worth the hoopla.

no thanks.

nope

When's the last time you said you were fine, but really weren't?

uh...as long as i'm living, i'm fine. (:

yep. living & healthy.

Wow I’ve had that philosophy for a while now

Last person you told a secret?

gerald doesn't let me have secrets.

damn it sounded like he owned me. sheesh but yeah i still don't have secrets.

ditto. I always confide in someone rather quickly.

Who was the last person you were in a car with?

siSTAR & mama.

yep [:

pops

Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say?

um, you look at the phone & say nigga please!

it's a bad time. lol it's alwaaaays a bad time nugga!

hay

Red Bull?

nah.

nah?

I guess

Is there someone you'd really like to just hang out with and talk about stuff?

emmm?

taylor! and steve? yeah steve too.

aw I still feel the same. but right now, big bertha because she is going to korea for the rest of ever ): also gregorium, alle baba, cazre, all my friends?

Think back to June 2007, were you single?

hmmm..nope.

....

I’m glad I remembered the first time around bc I sure don’t now.

Do you want to get married and have children one day?

[:

child(ren) definitely. marriage: if it's for me, yes.

ditto

Could you cry right now?

nah.

i'm sure if i forced myself

I don’t think so. Not unless a monster came into my room

Will you be single over summer?

no.

oh summer how i miss you so. not really, just....ahhh.

lol no (:

Do you hope your children are like you one day?

no! lmao. kinda.

haha yes & no. i want them to grow up fast like i did, but love their childhood like i never really could, for as long as i should have anyways.

Well that explains why I’m still holding on to childhood, doesn’t it. And I rather they have different personalities but the same logic.  Why would you want the same contribution to society two generations in a row?

Have you ever dropped your cell phone in water?

not this one, my last one.

Lalalalala

at some point yes

Would you be surprised if you parents had another baby together?

hell yes.

mmhm.

HAHA I seriously wouldn’t think it was my pops. Or my mama’s lol.  But if we’re speaking biological parents, hell yes.

Has 2009 been good for you so far?

it's been a learning experience.

so-so

2010 has been rocky, thanks for asking

Your sister tells you she's in jail, what do you say?

it's because of nicholas isn't it.

same thing

HA yeah.

Someone leaves a note and flowers on your car, cute or tacky?

i don't own a car. d:

rawr rawr rawr

still a bum

Would you ever date someone who was conceited?

hell no.

no thank you

not exactly.

Are you currently reading a book?

yes. a couple thousand.

no )':

YES and no wonder I was miserable at that time

Would you cry if you found out one of your friends were pregnant?

no...

maybe, because of being so emotional.

If she told me face to face.

Today, would you rather go forward a week or back a week?

forward?

yeah probably forward.

Forward!

Your best friend randomly starts hating you. What do you do?

say i never knew you could be so dumb.

word.

heck yes. and tell greg on them.

Would you ever go on a game show if you were offered?

no i'd be scared as shit!

yes! lol idk why i'd be scared

yes! monay!

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking weed?

haha, yes.

watch me!

still walkin strong

Where is the person who has your heart at the moment?

work.

*checks for heartbeat

yeah it's still inside of me.

lol I was a funny lad. he’s home.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?

idk maybe.

maybe?

Isn’t that just the way things go?

Do you laugh a lot?

yes people tell me that a lot.

yes but it's quiet actually.

YEAH, love to

Who are you spending your summer with this year?

people.

most likely mr. clark lol.

that didn’t happen ): but books, my laptop, music, people I love & vice versa, and movies and tyra. hoorah!

Do you believe in karma?

yes..

yes still.

fate.

Did you have a good birthday this year?

uhhhh

last year was so joyful

my sweet 16 was soooo much better than yours, fareals.

Do you think somebody likes the same person you do?

do you mean is a hoe trying to creep on my man? yes.

hell yes!

HA duh, how can you not?  And nobody was checkin for gerald, lol.

Are you a boy or a girl?

lmao, fem.

*checks for weiner

girl!

i’m a season..

Last time you held a baby?

a week & some change ago.

sunday.....same baby lol

aw she’s 1 years old now (= but last time I held a baby was my niece on saturday and she’s a newborn.

Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

bloomingdales i think.

gap. 2 for $10 tanks wooot!

not sure if I’m wearing a shirt.

Are you a jealous person?

no, possessive of what is mine.

i get very greedy about my friends, yes.

I agree with female number 1.

Is there anything that you are craving right now?

yes (:

ice cream that i have not opened.

a nice sleep and he.

Do you like being kissed spontaneously or asked?

hahaha spontaneity.

yes

yass you better work!

Has anything happened to you in the past month that made you really mad?

errrrm yes

people kept telling me to go to the nurse & the nurse was rude and mean.

I haven’t seen the people I’d like to, and one of them is now in cali. Another is in korea. & I know the reasons I haven’t seen people are my fault.

Enjoyed?

The Faces of Tyra

Whoo lawds.

Your People

can't do anything right.

Anti-Social as per Networking

or just Cuban Linx.

I don't dream romantically about specific people, but for those of you who do..

Females, man.  This could be you!  It's 11 o'clock; do you know where your children are!

I want to be friendss with this guy.  Despite how lunatic that comment seems, he's a feminist, atheist, and all-around freethinker.  Also a fanatic of Okra but we can get over that.

*Grimace, grimace, grimace!  I used to like that guy's 'tude.  Now I'm annoyed.  How can you just deny that a variation exists?

Hooray Responsibility!

I'm gonna try this when I have a drunk friend with a car.

I square, ESPN has the best commercials.  That's where I first saw the Old Spice commercials.

This was funny

and I wanted to share.

Also, my afternoon was hilarious, courtesy of MTV's Disaster Date and Silent Library.  I do recommend.

I Just Want Him for His Dang-a-Lang

I didn't know people still said that but that song is very entertaining.  Except when she talks about getting her salad tossed...ewwwwwwww.
So I just watched 106 & Park for the first time in a looooong time.  I saw the Rude Boy video, and now I know what that guy that I follow on Twitter was talking about with the wind or whine or whatever that Rih Rih does.  It is quite entertaining.  But that video can basically be seen as a graphic designer's dream or a lap dance.  That is all.  What kept me so entertained aside from Rih Rih's dance moves (throwing her vagina in our faces and attempting to pop some bootay) was not the colors, but the phrases that BET chose to bleep out.  Honestly?  We're gonna bleep out "can you get it up," but every other innuendo, which is basically every line of the song, stays?  And Rih Rih, who are you effing with that can't get it up?  I mean geez.

You the Breast!

Boobage via Links

MTV Diary of...N.E.R.D. Anybody else mesmorized by the boobs at 0:40?  Peeeeeep.
Rih Rih, I was not aware that we were still paying tribute to mj.  Them socks are so unnecessary, just like your performance.
Kelis has decided to actually start distributing real music.  Oh, and more boobs at 2:11.  Great boobs, by the way.  But did you see that madness she was seen wearing?

I'll Know Who Peeps My Space

CNN used the word "swag" for a headline.  I tried to take a picture but I took too long.  /:

This is what they were talking about when they said booty meat, not this.

Lol this is how you approach your future wife.

....I guess you can do those sorts of things now?

Yeah, okay.

Tons of New Txting Buddies (=

1.  and they are sophomores.  I don't even like sophomores, but all of the cool ones were around me this week.  Some freshmen too though.  People weren't as repulsive for me this week.  (:
2.  I'm going to Costa Rica on Sunday and I don't wanna stay the whole week.  I reaaaaally hope I can come back early, maybe spend time with Blue?  That's definitely pushing it, but I'm allowed to have dreams.
3.  Did you see True Life:  I Need A Transplant?  Pretty great, makes you feel sappy though.  Otherwise, these new True Lifes look pretty lame.  16 & Pregnant is still damn good though.
4.  I'm pretty hyped to see my SAT scores from earlier this month.  They come on April 1 and unless I get over a 2000, I'm continuing my prep classes.  
5.  I'm about 19 hours into having braids and my head feels tighter than...yup.  Prettay darn tight.
6.  Blue doesn't act like he likes me anymore.  We haven't seen each other in...almost 3 months. ):
7.  I have to pack and I really don't want to.  I have about 5 articles of clothing in my damn drawers anyway.  Hmph
8.  Fairly Oddparents was so much better when it first started.  Now, it can't even hold my attention for very long.
9.  Why do Ethan Hunt and Rico Strong do so many damn threesomes together?

I put my tongue like this, you cum in 5 seconds.

Lol I will never forget him saying that to me. I felt so violated but I must admit after all the dumbo weirdo freakazoid things Braids said & did & SHOWED on Thursday night, I did feel a little tinglay in the clitorial region when he said his mouth was watering cuz he wanna eat mee. I wouldn't let him even if I could but, ahhh. (: That's the sexiest thing ever. Anyways, did anyone see Jennifer Lopez on SNL? Omgg BOTH her damn performances SUCKED. I have a musical ear, but normally just for instrumental/intonation mistakes or mishaps. And my ear is very open to different kinds of vocals n shit. And although I never heard the songs she performed, I could just tell her vocals was FUCKED UP. She sounded horrible, her voice cracked MULTIPLE times, and it was the only thing that didn't blend with her back-up artists and band. Maybe it's because I always back it up for the band, but I find it very unlikely that that many people messed up continuously. It was just her. I'm sorry J. Lo, stick to the Mommy/Wife thing now I guess? Fail.

TGIF

so we can watch spongebob. [: